A Work In Progress

It has been exactly 5 years since I last wrote a blog.

To be honest, my own personal world shut down not long after the entire world did too. Oh, on the outside I put on a good mask that made it seem that all was well. But in reality, I was at my lowest point ever both mentally and emotionally. Everything that I had worked for and thought I had finally achieved was piece by piece ripped away until I was lying bare bones on the floor. I was going through the motions of my normal life of work, a spiritual routine and trying to be a creative photographer. But I was barely hanging on by a thread, simply trying to survive.

Only with the loving help of some very supportive people and a ton of prayer, was I able to slowly climb out of that deep pit of darkness. Then by the grace of God, I was able to move to a place where His beautiful creation brought me calm and joy. The last 5 years have been rocky to say the least, bringing along their own set of challenges. However, it has been a path of learning.

The values that I shared in my last blog post This is Me are still there at my core. Those are things that will never change and I am working on living according to those values. But I am also working on embracing the things that bring me peace while rejecting those that bring on the anxiety. And I’m working on dropping that mask a little more, to be more vulnerable, open and honest about my life, my experiences and my dreams so that not only others, but I too, can know the whole me.

This journey is by no means anywhere near completion. And I’m sure there will be more challenges along the way. Patience and understanding will be necessary because I am and always will be a work in progress.

Have you ever gone through something like this? Tell me about your path to healing.